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Project [21 Nov 2009|10:14pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Sitting here going over my Pre-100 project on how to manage stress and Ive come to the conclusion that
stress is gods way of letting us know we are human, being human we are aware of our actions and the stress they cause.
I met someone who said that they don't feel stress, they just go on from one task to the next.
I wish I had that kind of mental fortitude because stress is felt in my life everyday. If not for me then for the people I care about.
If your best friends mother was dying would you join them in their pain? No? Yes?

That choice was never presented to me, all I can say is stress is real and going threw it is the only way you can have any hopes of enduring it.

Fortunately for most of us its common enough we don't stress the little stuff....
Ahh good ol live journal you dont get stressed out do you? Once this semester is over I'm going on vacation. -_-

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Wastelands [20 Nov 2009|09:59pm]
[ mood | rushed ]
[ music | Round Midnight-Miles Davis ]

What can I say about this year?
Hm.
Ive had alot of ups and downs lately, mainly dealing with school after being MIA class isn't second nature yet.
Focusing on school work is very hard for me now, however I'm making progress and hope to be able to catch up to where i belong in life.

OH and speaking of life (because I know you all are interested )Ive been trying to get a life in Baltimore and one has been issued to me...I see what I can become if I succeed and what I can become if I fail....what else can you ask for...?
I feel really drained tonight...FYI (this is not a gloomy post)

With exams over and projects rolling in and me with no car no place no money Its urgent I succeed. I have never felt this kind of pressure before. Nor do I think I was meant to.. "God never gives you more than you can handle" I tell people, and I believe that still.
Regardless of what anyone says or thinks remember it is one of the most common tricks of the devil to make you believe what you have learned in life is meaningless.
Enough with the motivational speaking.......Tomorrow is busy! thats a good thing...I need to surround myself around the people who care about me to embrace my future and give up the past.

Seriously its time to grow up, and face the world in a different light.
One thing solitude taught me is that I already know what I need to do and have the means to get it.

Something for the Fallout soundtrack:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hev7RWxmNd8

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[21 Aug 2009|11:26am]
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[21 Aug 2009|12:13am]
[ mood | -_- ]

Here is the original “Union of Friends” section from More Fruits of Solitude: William Penn

 127. They that love beyond the World, cannot be separated by it.

128. Death cannot kill, what never dies.

129. Nor can Spirits ever be divided that love and live in the same Divine Principle; the Root and Record of their Friendship.

130. If Absence be not Death, neither is theirs.

131. Death is but Crossing the World, as Friends do the Seas; They live in one another still.

132. For they must needs be present, that love and live in that which is Omnipresent.

133. In this Divine Glass, they see Face to Face; and their Converse is Free, as well as Pure.

134. This is the Comfort of Friends, that though they may be said to Die, yet their Friendship and Society are, in the best Sense, ever present, because Immortal.

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UnTitled Story. [15 Jul 2009|08:44pm]
[ mood | calm ]


Chapter#1

Shadow Sunk

Pg.1

 

Feet crashing into the earth a steady rhythm reverberating up his legs crashing into his core. This is my heartbeat to the skies the thought as swells of sweat beads form and fall  down his forehead. This is my blood to the earth. He liked to imagine that this dedication to the progression of the hunt was recognized as a act gaining favor from the elements around him.

His run broke into a light-footed stride for a few paces before slowing as he plunged his bare heels into the sun baked dirt. A thin layer of compacted earth loosened as he broke his sprint and dropped in a crouch. He inched under the cover of a nearby tree. Barefooted and in the dark he learned to take caution with every step. And this time one of those lessons paid off as he firmly stepped on upturned log.

Pulling his spear close to his side clutching  it as if it was a extension of himself taking a few moments to regain composure….”lets move” he thought to himself.  Lowering his spear and making sure his grip was firm and steady able to strike at a moments notice when he deemed necessary.

 He propelled his form closer to the frame masked in shadow he’d been hunting for 9 days now.

Cursing his human limitations, skilled as he was it meant nothing thus far. All he’d been able to view of this creature was its shadows….shadows that clung to it always like a second layer of skin. Now finally close enough to peer threw the bushes and see the creature himself he felt his heartbeat quicken..

Time seemed to slow, and the air he drew into his lungs even seemed to be filled with moisture….He steadied himself aiming his spear higher incase it some how managed to get over him in the confusion of the first attack.

Teeth held his bottom lip as he stopped breathing and his body sprung towards the night cloaked creature. His nerve network sending rippling bolts of energy threw every cell of his body as he felt himself leave the ground….

Yes, that is how he remembers it….He held his head and scanned the area around him….nothing but darkness… had this beast swallowed him, he felt a chill creep up his spine.

“Im still alive....”

The words seemed hallow even to him aware now the true answers would come at a heavy price, that feeling again….like his insides held the weight of steel.

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[10 Apr 2009|10:42am]


This year has been testing for me, I cant understand alot of things and the thing I thought I knew are proven wrong.  I cant submit art like I did in the past, and frankly I dont have the drive to force myself do draw for the sake of art.

I was going to write something witty like a short story or a poem.... oddly enough I just cant do it.

Damn....I hate when I cant say whats on my mind.

Dear LiveJournal,

I owe you one.... Ill be back tomorrow with a decent post.

 

 

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[09 Apr 2009|12:24pm]
                                                         


Yesterday is felt like    -_-.....





Today I feel like dancing.... (Pay no heed to the baby, it has nothing to do with the joy)
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[07 Apr 2009|11:17am]
Lets see... The best thing about my life so far this year is the thought of passing my upcomming test.
Been so busy lately Ive neglected livejournal.
And Im afraid it will continue until I have something worth posting.

My bad, laters.
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They tryin to hit me in my head like Koopa [02 Sep 2008|04:41pm]
He came back
In the same suit that he was buried in
Similar to the one his grand father was married in
Yes... he was still fresh to death
bling, two ear-rings, a chain laying on his chest
He still had it cuz they couldn't find it
And the bullets from his enemies sat like two inches behind it
smelled the Hennesy from when his niggas got reminded
and poured out liquor in his memory, he didn't mind it, But...
He couldn't sip it fast enough
So the liquor was just filling the casket up
floating down by his feet was the letter from his sister
Second Grade hand-writing simply read "I miss ya"
Suit jacket pocket held his baby daughter's picture
Right next to it one of his man's stuck a swisher
He had a notion as he laid there soaking
Saw that the latch was broken, he kicked his casket open
and he...

[Chorus]

This life goes passing you by
It might go fast if you lie
You go and you live then you die...

O-oh-oh-ohh

If life goes passing you by
Don't cry
If you breaking the rules
Making your moves
Paying your dues...
Chasing the cool

Not at all nervous as he dug to the surface
Tarnished gold chain is what he loosened up the earth with
He used his mouth as a shovel to try and hollow it
and when he couldn't dirt spit... swollowed it
Working like a.. hmm.. reverse archaeologist

Except.. his buried treasure was sunshine
So when some shined through a hole that he had drove
it reflected off the gold and almost made son blind
He grabbed on to some grass, he climbed
Pulled himself up out of his own grave and looked at the time
On the watch that had stopped six months after the shots
That had got him in the box wringing Henny out his socks
Figured it was hours because he wasn't older
Used some flowers to brush the dirt up off his shoulders - so..
With a right hand that was all bones and no reason to stay
Decided to walk home
so he..



He begged for some change to get him on a train
"Damn that nigga stank", is what they complained
Tried to light the blunt but it burst into flames
Caught the reflection in the window of what he became
A long look... Wasn't shook, wasn't ashamed
Matter fact only thing on his brain was brains.. yeah
And getting back in his lane, doing his thang
First he had to find something to slang
Next stop was his block
It had the same cops
Walked right past the same spot where he was shot
Shocked that some lil' niggas tried to sell him rocks
It just felt weird being on the opposite
They figured that he wasn't from there
so they pulled out and robbed him
with the same gun they shot him with
Put it to his head and said "You scared ain't ya?"
He said: "Hustler for death. No heaven for a gangsta."

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[16 Jul 2008|06:20pm]
 Damn yea... theres alot of people who have no choice in what they have to do and who they become.. Then theirs many more who have choices and are just lazy... they can do something and they just dont..
Its in my most trying times i try to remember..
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[03 Jun 2008|08:53am]
[ mood | calm ]

Havent been in the posting state of mind lately.. Ill do a full update sometime soon... But heres something..try it.

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[16 May 2008|10:04am]
[ mood | productive ]

*Cracks Neck* right lets see...

-=Positives=-

*Im making progress in every part of my life that I've always wanted to... Like monies and I'm going to start making payments on my Cadillac 300. Shit and oddly enough I'm worried about the risk I dun know whats happened to me LJ when did I get a degree on risk management n shit.. Nah its not risk its the fact i dun want to get stuck with a car i cant pay for yet and no gas money..... hm Ill come back to that one.

*My KungFu classess are fuckin me up, everyday i walk out the doors stiff as robocop on skates.. Sides that its great feelin my fat ass sweat for something i really want.

*hahaha fuck the negs!!!!!!

Later.

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stiff drink [24 Mar 2008|12:49am]
[ mood | enraged ]

"someone" saw a message to bunniea (i forgot how to make it a link) and they tried to poison my drink poison  too... lol...
i dun know what it was..but it was white and nasty lookin.. she ended up drinkin it..
to poison a mans koolaide is horriable.....had to be said.

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attendance award [24 Mar 2008|12:42am]
[ mood | creative ]

 hmmm...
first of all sorry for the lack of post...
lets see i moved a few more times.. i got blitz...then i got blitz again..then i learned to move out the way..
wait.. shit it happened again.
alas now i wear full protective gear from head to toe...good to go... think outside the bun...

ive met some awesome people over the last err lifetime... so started sum stuff.. yea its been good..
also i think i found a new friend and it was about time..

i work in a hospital now and gonna stay there for awhile...in baltimore merryland..

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[23 Feb 2008|03:40am]
 Err wow I havent posted in 97 weeks. Well heres a post.
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Hi old wolrd! [14 Apr 2006|01:10am]
[ mood | Illogically brilliant ]

My thoughts a week ago feels like digging up a relic and studying it for all its flaws.
We are not born perfect yet we strive to be.. Nah I dont see anyone trying to be perfect.. Perfectly stuck and fucked is about it. Staying in the same spot the may of felt perfect once.
The gas chamber to the fools wholl breathe it.
My phone is in receive only mode so if I said I was going to call you back..I lied if you ask T-Mobile..
At least I have a N-gage so I can play with myself..the gift that keeps on..
Do you like suprises? Did you ever?
No..nope.
Thats a lie.

Forgoten memories when they return I like that suprise..rare find.
I need to go out...

Why do you ask the same questions over and over again if you just change the answer..
I missed you MEL same ol G.

Thats all you get.

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[04 Apr 2006|11:05am]
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A master of sexual gratification

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[27 Mar 2006|12:22am]
I cant act the way my peers do anymore.
Its not always as easy a seek and destroy either.
I need to find a home that what I need.

Wheres a good place to go?


In other news reality is real and its happening.
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Quickie.. [28 Feb 2006|06:41pm]
"Many of us spend our whole lives running from feeling with the mistaken belief that you cannot bear the pain. But you have already borne the pain. What you have not done is feel all you are beyond that pain." - Kahlil Gibran
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Embraced.. [20 Feb 2006|09:43pm]
Ive been remembering alot of things about myself I've either forgotten or pushed away..
Im not the man I thought I was..
Im something else..
I never really had a plan..
Call me what you will but I wasnt prepared.
Ive dealt with it..
Lost many I would keep..
Turned away..Been turned away.
Doesnt mean to much really.


Theres certain people that managed to pull things out of me I didnt know I had.
Theres certain people..Ive never met who impacted my life..
I like things at a distance...well I did anyway.
Never knew how much was demanded of a person in solitude.
Ive let anger...fear and depression rule me..

What rules me tonight..
Holding on to something that would rather be free..
Im sorry dear friend I could not give you what you wanted.
Out of the blue you came to me like you always do..
Your presence cant be shrugged off..
I can only wonder if you still think of me.
Friends Ive had all my life...
Friend Ive never had.

I stand...
Ready once again to move.
Silent now frozen you remain..
I ask not for you voice dear friend..
I ask to much..
Your not a monster..Infact your beauty is what captured me.
I was the monster..
I knew pain to well and could see it in my future..
Please be happy..
You knew it was comming....so did I..
Destiny of a lie....
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